Date: Sun, 25 Mar 2007

Subject: Moving

Ok,

I had a lovely breakfast with my dear friend DeeDee this morning. Thank you, I needed a little boost, I have been bursting into tears unpredictably for the last 2 days.

I am sad to leave this house in New Canaan. I look around, it is bright sunny, and practically invites the outdoors in with all the ground level windows. I have been watching the deer, hawks and wild turkeys return on the property with the arrival of spring. The grounds are planted with amazing flowers that bloom all year long, and these are starting to push their way out of the dirt and show petals of color scattered across the property. I will miss the quiet peacefulness, and convenience of this place too. I move Wednesday, into my new home. My first venture solo in ownership of a house. It is the photo above. I explained to DeeDee this morning, I feel it is a tight rope balancing act I am performing with this house, and my plans for it. I don't want to make the same mistakes I have in my previous houses, and I also don't want to overextend myself financially. I am hoping I will have enough physical and mental strength to carry through with the renovation project, and to be able to retain my level of serenity and sanity while living in a construction zone. My fears of the past are lurking in the shadows of memories of Chestnut Hill Rd, a previous house I jointly owned when I was married.

This house is a flipper, one where I am just getting my foot back in the ownership door. If all goes smoothly, as I am planning out, also dependant on the real estate market, I want to be out of this house and on to my next in about a year and a half, and make a profit in the process. We will see, I will have a better idea once I start crunching figures. Wish me luck and keep reminding me when I am on the verge of a meltdown, this is only temporary.

oxoxoxox

Stacy